I'm so excited! Kim is coming to see me over easter! Wihi! I'm a bit terrified too, because I have social phobia, but I reckon it's gonna be alright. xxx

This is why my life sucks right now:

1. I'm lonely.
2. I have a cold.
3. There's nothing fun on TV.
4. I don't feel like writing.
5. I've eaten too much and feel fat.
6. It's dark outside.
7. I'm worried about changing schools.
8. My CD's that I've ordered are late.

Yeah. That's my rant for today.

Argh, I'm ill! All week, I've been hoping catch a cold or the flu, or pretty much anything to be able to avoid going to school, and now, over the weekend, all hell breaks lose. Just my luck. It might last a bit into next week if I'm lucky, though.

So, I'm in the strangest state of mind for the moment, because I'm feeling quite alright, but I'm a little bit nervous, because I've decided to change to a new school. I won't know a single person there. My social phobia is getting the better of me. But I don't really have much choice, because in order to go to the school I do now, I have to get up at 5 o'clock in the morning, and go by bus, for an hour and 40 minutes. It sort of places me in this constant haze of tiredness.

I'm gonna go and eat icecream now.

XXX, Gwen.

I've figured I don't really write here as much as I used to anymore. I guess I don't have that much interesting stuff to say, my life is pretty boring. But anyway. I just thought I'd confirm that I am still, very much alive. And rather well.

Love.

I have a bad feeling today. Nothing feels quite right, and I have to go to school tomorrow. I shall buy myself a new hat to keep the mood up.

I'm feeling so DOWN, so low, so depressed! I'm not sure why, but it just feels like the whole world has turned against me, and nobody cares, and everything like that. I'll probably feel better later, though...

the only good thing with being this depressed, is that I create an enormous amount of song-lyrics and poems. The only thing that's bad about the song lyrics is that I don't actually play an instrument good enough to compose and make a real song out of it. Oh well, I save them in my journal and maybe... just maybe, sometime. ^^

So, the new Evanescence album has been leaked! I'm a good girl, and I haven't downloaded it (maily because I dunno where to find it XD), but I've read all the lyrics, and DAMMIT, they're good! I'm looking foward to October 3th now!!

Another great thing is, that yesterday I got to watch 'Flowers in the attic' with Kristy Swanson! I've been wanting to see that movie for so long, but I haven't had tjhe money to buy the DVD. I love VC Andrews books to death, and I'd heard that the movie sucked pretty badly, but actually, it wasn't that bad! It was far from great, but not BAD. The attic rocked my socks. The actors who played Cathy and Chris looked just right for the part, and I think it MAINLY stayed pretty true to the story. So, I recorded it, and it is now officially a part of my GIGANTIC, recorded VHS collection. ;D

Tomorrow I'm goin' to school, and I'm actually looking foward to it. Even my dancing-class. I can't dance worth a damn, and that's why it's so funny. XD I've just accepted myself to be a fuckup.

Argh, I have such a cold!!! I spent all of last night eating icecream and watching Harry Potter. Today, I've been reading enormous amounts of Sirius/Lupin slash. Man, it's such a cute pairing! It almost feels like canon, I must say.

I had the best day today. I took a walk in the rain with a lovely girl, and we laughed and talked, and it made me really happy because I've missed her sharp sense of humor.

I love my new school. My class seems kind of plain, but I'll get to sing in a choir ( probably), have theatre classes, work with my art, and well... it seems great! I'm looking forwerd to 3 fun years.

Phew, this has been a boring day. I had nothing to do. I sat by the computer way to much, I'm gonna try to leave soon. I'm gonna watch The Simpsons now, I think... Homer rocks. Anwyways, I dunno what to say, I júst wanted to write something... yuck, I hope tomorrow will be better!